BACKFIRE....

I started my " re-gain life spirit" with much pomp pomp. As I previously mentioned that I choose different lifestyle program i.e "mind- beauty program" and believe me was really great. I actually like it and I was feeling the difference inside me. I think I was feeling positive, cheerful, hopeful etc etc.

But as usual my demons are back- my laziness, my negativity and my inferiority complex just creep inside me. Again I am where I was in the start with the sense of lost. Sincerity is there no doubt but sometimes my the fire just extinguish without a trace.

Before I deal with my life I have to do something with these lapse of concentration. But at the same time I came to conclusion that there is no escape from fear. The more you run the more its haunt you. I have no choices; I have to face and fight with my fear. And how I will do it I don't know. I think I have to do this my whole life.

Now for the time being I have to do What I started few days ago.