FEAR...................

Life is not fair. Life is not at all fair. no matter how you untangle your mess in life, it pose more tricker situation in front of you.
I want a job. I seriously want a job; whatever kind maybe. Thanks to my stars I got a job. I f I sloved this problem I now came to face to face with new problem. This job is a trash. I hate this job. I hate the sheer name of the job. Whenever I hear this name I feel replusive. I am always stressed out and don't know how to keep myself in safe place. Pablo said that when you want something then the universe conspire against you make it happen.
I have felt that. I know inside me that I want it but there are some more questions which need to be answered. How much I want it? Did I deserve to be there? Am I worth it? Am I making fool of myself? there lords and lords of issue which I have to deal with.
I am very scared. I don't know what to do. My fear for the job or fear of saving my ass is striping my happy hours, my determination and most importantly living life on my own terms. I always felt that I am remote controled. tomorrow I have big test and I have to pass in flying color.
God Help Me!!!!!! I need your blessing.
Your child is very lonely and scared.