4 November,

Hi,

when do you think everything is going to your plan? just tell me what is the feeling of being taking life in your control. i beg for my construction of my words as they are coming randomly form my head. I am even not watch over the spelling nor I am raising my head to check my answers.
 you will think not again............... again she is weeping her insecurities over her words. there are no one to rescue me from my worries, my insecurities or my frustration, so i end up throwing my pains in words. I assume that at least my words will understand the true me. when i am writing ( most of the time nonsense) but it give me a sense of worthiness in me. I went back to my dull life with new energy.
each one of us want to make niche of herself in this world. some professionally and some personally. Well, my deepest desire is to write; just write like a queen.
but just like any wannabe writer my days are filled with thought for writing but I seldom write.
I don't want to get married because i thought marriage is the end of life but looking at everybody and listening to everybody, I decided to get married. Now i am married ready to complete my first anniversary but i don't know is this the life which i wanted? Am I happy because I don't feel so. everyday we have share of our fight which end up in violent steak.
My in laws assumed that a girl has to be a domestic goddess no matter what. you have to be born as domestic goddess otherwise your other thing  are of no use. and last but not the least, men in my in laws's house including my husband are not born to cooperate or share household work. this things has to done by females in family.
Apart from that, there are loads of superstitions and customs which are are part of sophisticated culture of my in laws's family. Now, a rational, an iconoclast, male bashing feminist and a rebellious girls like me, this things are outrageous.
now here i am stuck in bad marriage for life. I am dying. HELP!!!

(if somebody who bother to read my blog doesn't understand a bit, then your displeasure is regretted as I wrote what came to my mind and i am not very comfortable with keybord as my hand doesnot match my mind.)

13 September, 2013

Hi,
I promise myself that I will write blog everyday; just like diary writing. Then I reformed myself I recapitulate that I will write a blog frequently, if not regularly and definitely not occasionally. however my bad luck I am sucked in my decision. No doubt I start but did not finish. there are lots and lots draft which I fail to complete. I have to take my blog very seriously.

Right now, In my new life ( i.e married life ), I am facing a huge financial crunches. in other words,I have to count my each penny. Now I always been a spendthrift and had very casual approach toward money. This is another reason for which I was never been serious about my career. Moreover,all the money woes are been taken care of by parents. I was not daddy's spoilt brat who loves to spend dad hard earned money but then I didn't even bothered about it.
Right now I am working as a part time trainer in an NGO but I have to increase my productivity.
How I will tell you later...... still then Bye

Life goes on

30 May, 2013

Hi,

Its been long long time. Actually its been almost two years since my last blog. So much has changed since then.
Back then I was still frustrated, under confident, desperate, unemployed youth who don't know from where to start. Now when I look myself I still see the same gal with the same problem but things have slightly changed. good or bad, I don't know but change is definitely there.
I think, maybe I have became calmer, quieter, yes little bit older but wisher... hmm.... maybe or yes maybee... I don't know ? Only time will answer that.
The thing which has definitely changed is that Ms Nobody has changed to Mrs Nobody. Now this newly wed Mrs Nobody has to deal with all new sets of problem along with the old one. Life is far from boring; its new kind of depression which surrounds me now.
To begin with, as you can see I am still late to post my blog. This is the basic thing which I am showing you. I am still late, still casual, still over dreamy and most important of all very late to propagate the situation. All this has created a havoc in my married life. Along with that new sets of problem which arise when you enter into new horizon leaving your past abode and its memories behind. I am in hell. I am again writing in this same blog to start my afresh, Again.
I realized that going here and there will not save my ass. I have to start from where I have left. so, again after two years and going round to all the new blog sites I have realised that you can't find peace away from the things you like. I like Blogpost and I have returned back home.

Still then,
Bye